Last week: 134.8lbs
This week: 135.4lbs
Goal: 133lbs
12 sleeps left. I am so screwed. Please be bloating that is gone by next week!
Monday, November 19, 2012
Thursday, November 15, 2012
The Cycle Ends Here and Now.
I am done. So very done with my ridiculousness. The cycle MUST stop.
Here is how it usually goes down:
1. Oh dear! The scale is so rude.
2. Time to diet! Salads and soups and running and Jillian. GO! GO! GO!
3. I hate dieting. It's so much work. I miss food. At least the scale is less mean......
4. Goal achieved! I am amazing! I rock! YAY me!!
5. I love food. We are such good friends. I deserve this pizza, this candy, this booze, this dessert, these chips. Hell, even if I'm full or don't even really like junk food, I'm going to eat it. Because I can.
6. Exercise? Right. Um, I run sometimes. But I have so many other things that have been put on hold while I was dieting. I'm going to do those things. Get caught up on life! And tv! And napping!
Later, rinse, repeat. Again and again.
The worst part? I am an idiot. I don't want the other half of the pizza. I don't like chips. I always prefer running to cleaning. What the hell is wrong with me?? Just because I'm not actively trying to lose weight doesn't mean I get to be so self indulgent. Ridiculous.
So I am done. For good.
This time I am making maintenance goals. I will be accountable. I will NOT go on a sugar-fat-carb bender. I don't even LIKE those foods. Dude.
Maintenance Goals:
1. Exercise.
Because, come on, exercise makes me happy. I have never wanted to be thin. I have always wanted to be fit. What good is being thin if you can't move the furniture? I love feeling strong. I know my body. My left butt muscle is stronger than my right. My right quad is stronger than my left. My shoulders are weak but my triceps build muscle quickly. My abs are great! Nothing those puppies can't handle. I relish the fluidity that strength brings to my movements.
Exercise 5 times a week. At least. Running, Jillian, whatever. For any length of time. Twenty-four minutes of 30 Day Shred? Good times.
2. No Binge Eating.
There is no need. I don't "deserve" anything. I am just me, living my life. Can I order pizza? Sure. Can I do it all the time? No. Should I eat the whole thing? Hells NO. Don't be ridiculous. Dessert. Do I like it? Kinda. Should I eat it? Sometimes. Should I eat it when I'm already full and don't really like it? NO. So many times NO.
I need to adjust my attitude. My food is my fuel. I feel best when I am eating healthy. So I should do that. Not rocket science my friends.
3. Have Something To Work Towards.
I do best with goals. And consequences. Even if that consequence is to admit that I have failed.
I am going to pick shorter term and attainable goals. This is actually harder than it seems. I'm going to continue to blog to keep me accountable.
Goals #1 and #2:
20 pull ups in a row.
Complete Jillian's Ripped in 30
My plan is to do pull-ups every day (ish) until I can do 20 in a row. To keep me motivated, I am not allowed to have any alcohol or dessert that day until I have done my pull-ups. No pull-ups? No fun.
Jillian will take me longer than 30 days because I plan to run on the off days. If I'm not running, I am Jillianing.
I am not allowed to complain about something unless I am willing to make a change. I am taking control of my life (again. As usual!). This is not allowed to go on any longer.
Wish me luck! I will, of course, keep you posted!
Here is how it usually goes down:
1. Oh dear! The scale is so rude.
2. Time to diet! Salads and soups and running and Jillian. GO! GO! GO!
3. I hate dieting. It's so much work. I miss food. At least the scale is less mean......
4. Goal achieved! I am amazing! I rock! YAY me!!
5. I love food. We are such good friends. I deserve this pizza, this candy, this booze, this dessert, these chips. Hell, even if I'm full or don't even really like junk food, I'm going to eat it. Because I can.
6. Exercise? Right. Um, I run sometimes. But I have so many other things that have been put on hold while I was dieting. I'm going to do those things. Get caught up on life! And tv! And napping!
Later, rinse, repeat. Again and again.
The worst part? I am an idiot. I don't want the other half of the pizza. I don't like chips. I always prefer running to cleaning. What the hell is wrong with me?? Just because I'm not actively trying to lose weight doesn't mean I get to be so self indulgent. Ridiculous.
So I am done. For good.
This time I am making maintenance goals. I will be accountable. I will NOT go on a sugar-fat-carb bender. I don't even LIKE those foods. Dude.
Maintenance Goals:
1. Exercise.
Because, come on, exercise makes me happy. I have never wanted to be thin. I have always wanted to be fit. What good is being thin if you can't move the furniture? I love feeling strong. I know my body. My left butt muscle is stronger than my right. My right quad is stronger than my left. My shoulders are weak but my triceps build muscle quickly. My abs are great! Nothing those puppies can't handle. I relish the fluidity that strength brings to my movements.
Exercise 5 times a week. At least. Running, Jillian, whatever. For any length of time. Twenty-four minutes of 30 Day Shred? Good times.
2. No Binge Eating.
There is no need. I don't "deserve" anything. I am just me, living my life. Can I order pizza? Sure. Can I do it all the time? No. Should I eat the whole thing? Hells NO. Don't be ridiculous. Dessert. Do I like it? Kinda. Should I eat it? Sometimes. Should I eat it when I'm already full and don't really like it? NO. So many times NO.
I need to adjust my attitude. My food is my fuel. I feel best when I am eating healthy. So I should do that. Not rocket science my friends.
3. Have Something To Work Towards.
I do best with goals. And consequences. Even if that consequence is to admit that I have failed.
I am going to pick shorter term and attainable goals. This is actually harder than it seems. I'm going to continue to blog to keep me accountable.
Goals #1 and #2:
20 pull ups in a row.
Complete Jillian's Ripped in 30
My plan is to do pull-ups every day (ish) until I can do 20 in a row. To keep me motivated, I am not allowed to have any alcohol or dessert that day until I have done my pull-ups. No pull-ups? No fun.
Jillian will take me longer than 30 days because I plan to run on the off days. If I'm not running, I am Jillianing.
I am not allowed to complain about something unless I am willing to make a change. I am taking control of my life (again. As usual!). This is not allowed to go on any longer.
Wish me luck! I will, of course, keep you posted!
Monday, November 12, 2012
Tell me why? I don't like Mondays...
Last week: 136.4lbs
This week: 134.8lbs
Goal: 133lbs
1.8lbs to lose in 19 sleeps. It is possible!
This past week the scale has settled down a bit, not jumping around like crazy. I'm not sure if my body has started to find equilibrium or if the combination of medications (one with the side effect of constipation and the other with the side effect of diarrhea) has made my gut act normal for a change. We shall see as I go off the second med. I am trying hard not to succumb to the "modest weight gain" side effect of the stupid drugs.
In Jillian news, I have started week 9 of Body Revolution, meaning I am on workouts 9 and 10 and cardio 3. These are definitely the hardest Jillian workouts I have ever done. (With exception to Extreme Shed and Shred which I just did with Krista. They have a lot of the same exercises, so it follows they are about the same level.) I am so sore, as if I've been doing solid weight training. But, I have never enjoyed Jillian more.
The more difficult the exercises get with lots of balancing and doing lower and upper body exercises at the same time, the more interesting it is. It takes a lot of focus to do the moves properly and I never get bored during the workouts or need to watch a show while doing the non-cardio workouts. I really enjoy rotating through three videos and doing something new every two weeks. I'm excited (and afraid) to see what workouts 11 and 12 are like.
This week: 134.8lbs
Goal: 133lbs
1.8lbs to lose in 19 sleeps. It is possible!
This past week the scale has settled down a bit, not jumping around like crazy. I'm not sure if my body has started to find equilibrium or if the combination of medications (one with the side effect of constipation and the other with the side effect of diarrhea) has made my gut act normal for a change. We shall see as I go off the second med. I am trying hard not to succumb to the "modest weight gain" side effect of the stupid drugs.
In Jillian news, I have started week 9 of Body Revolution, meaning I am on workouts 9 and 10 and cardio 3. These are definitely the hardest Jillian workouts I have ever done. (With exception to Extreme Shed and Shred which I just did with Krista. They have a lot of the same exercises, so it follows they are about the same level.) I am so sore, as if I've been doing solid weight training. But, I have never enjoyed Jillian more.
The more difficult the exercises get with lots of balancing and doing lower and upper body exercises at the same time, the more interesting it is. It takes a lot of focus to do the moves properly and I never get bored during the workouts or need to watch a show while doing the non-cardio workouts. I really enjoy rotating through three videos and doing something new every two weeks. I'm excited (and afraid) to see what workouts 11 and 12 are like.
Monday, November 5, 2012
Monday Again
Last Week's Weight: 138.8lbs
This Week's Weight: 136.4lbs
Goal Weight: 133lbs
The scale is being a bit more reasonable this week. Still going to be tough to make the challenge deadline, though.
This Week's Weight: 136.4lbs
Goal Weight: 133lbs
The scale is being a bit more reasonable this week. Still going to be tough to make the challenge deadline, though.
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Cleanse Pictures
In case you wanted more. Because dude, you can never get enough of the cleanse!!
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| Breakfast Day 1. Yum? |
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| Bottom's up! |
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| Poor Scott. He didn't know what he was getting into! |
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| Our Frenemy the Juicer. Making, um, something to "eat". |
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| Layers. Delicious. |
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| Baba!! Cutest Cleanser. I cannot believe she liked the juices. |
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| Getting worse. Scott is not tolerating this well...... |
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| Rob has collapsed. |
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| Breanna has turned into a lion!!! So so so cold. |
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| Lunch (Dinner?) in my coat. Yes, I was THAT cold. |
And the best picture........................
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| Ta Da! |
Challenge Complete!!!!
Friday, November 2, 2012
Goal Accomplished! And Notes About Cleansing...
So the weight loss from the cleanse looked like this:
Day 1: 130 (eff you bloat)
Day 2: 126 (nice!)
Day 3: 124.4(so close!!!)
Morning after Day 3: 123.4 (which is my absolute favourite number to see on the scale. My favourite time to see on the clock is 12:34 so really I am just plain weird)
The cleanse was exhausting, challenging, and rewarding. I really missed food while I was juicing, but liked knowing exactly what to make to eat.
It was such an adventure buying the groceries! I was the crazy vegetable lady in the grocery store! My cart was F-U-L-L! Of all kinds of things I would never buy. I even got into a sign language fight with an old lady (who did not speak English) over the last of the swiss chard! No! you can't have one! I need all eight! (note : swiss chard is the most disgusting of the cleanse foods. I should have let her take all of them)
Four people. Three days. Fifteen juices!
Fruit and vegetables as far as the eye can see....
Day 1: "Breakfast" No, not the delicious looking mayo. The brightly hued orange slime. Yum.
After completing the challenge, I wouldn't rule it out as a thing I might do again. I liked how full the drinks were. And some were actually delicious. Green Lemonade! I would actually drink that in real life. Some were nasty (morning snack from day 2 and I are still not on speaking terms)
I would never recommend doing it alone. Team camaraderie is what got me through most of the days. It was great, truly. There are so few difficult things you do in life that others share with you in the exact same way. Having people who understood how hard it was and how proud you were of your self was amazing. Doing it alone would not be as rewarding. I am not only proud of myself but of my teammates!
It has given me a new appreciation of food. Breakfast was underwhelming. After spending days anticipating the first bite, it was meh. (we had egg mcmuffins, which I normally love). I find myself wondering where the flavour is! The juices were so vibrant - you could really taste all the ingredients (sometimes that was a bad thing - evil evil swiss chard). The other thing I found, was that because the flavours were so strong, you really took the time to focus on your food. So even though it was just a drink, you really had a chance to experience all the different tastes of the ingredients.
It was exhausting. I have never been so snappy in my life. I am glad that is over.
Ginger, lemon and hot water. Cleansers best friend!
Breakfast Day 3: trying the theory that everything tastes better in a martini glass.
Bottoms Up!
Finished product!
March vs. November
All in all, it was an experience I will never forget. I am glad I did it just as much as I am glad it is over!
Day 1: 130 (eff you bloat)
Day 2: 126 (nice!)
Day 3: 124.4(so close!!!)
Morning after Day 3: 123.4 (which is my absolute favourite number to see on the scale. My favourite time to see on the clock is 12:34 so really I am just plain weird)
The cleanse was exhausting, challenging, and rewarding. I really missed food while I was juicing, but liked knowing exactly what to make to eat.
It was such an adventure buying the groceries! I was the crazy vegetable lady in the grocery store! My cart was F-U-L-L! Of all kinds of things I would never buy. I even got into a sign language fight with an old lady (who did not speak English) over the last of the swiss chard! No! you can't have one! I need all eight! (note : swiss chard is the most disgusting of the cleanse foods. I should have let her take all of them)
After completing the challenge, I wouldn't rule it out as a thing I might do again. I liked how full the drinks were. And some were actually delicious. Green Lemonade! I would actually drink that in real life. Some were nasty (morning snack from day 2 and I are still not on speaking terms)
I would never recommend doing it alone. Team camaraderie is what got me through most of the days. It was great, truly. There are so few difficult things you do in life that others share with you in the exact same way. Having people who understood how hard it was and how proud you were of your self was amazing. Doing it alone would not be as rewarding. I am not only proud of myself but of my teammates!
It has given me a new appreciation of food. Breakfast was underwhelming. After spending days anticipating the first bite, it was meh. (we had egg mcmuffins, which I normally love). I find myself wondering where the flavour is! The juices were so vibrant - you could really taste all the ingredients (sometimes that was a bad thing - evil evil swiss chard). The other thing I found, was that because the flavours were so strong, you really took the time to focus on your food. So even though it was just a drink, you really had a chance to experience all the different tastes of the ingredients.
It was exhausting. I have never been so snappy in my life. I am glad that is over.
All in all, it was an experience I will never forget. I am glad I did it just as much as I am glad it is over!
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Cleanse Day 3: Next up - DORITOS!!
It's done, it's done, it's done!!
The things I have learned:
1. Juice can be yucky. And make you barf (Breanna! And almost Scott!).
2. When you drink all your meals through a straw your teeth stay very clean. Bonus!
3. Running while cleansing just might be the stupidest idea ever. There is certainly no eating disorder in my future.
4. Cleanse dishwashers, water bottles and poo all smell like The Cleanse. I'm not even certain from where exactly that smell originates. Some pureed something or other.
5. I am so very glad to be me.
Thus far I have been:
a) Scott
I found myself driving to the doctor and having missed my turn. It was as if I had just "woken up" father along Ira Needles than I had planned. I think I was on auto pilot to my mother's house.
b) Lisa
Cold. So frickin' cold, all the time. It's AWFUL. I never really understood the evils of permafrostiness until this week. The LAYERS. Oh the layers I had to wear. Always bulky, never slimming. The whole freezing-inside-for-no-reason was awful. I can't believe Lisa has to do this every winter. <Shudder>
c) Grumpy Person
I think I was just like normal people. It was odd. I didn't say hello to strangers. I didn't hum to myself. I didn't twirl for no reason. I just didn't have the energy. I miss being happy. Like real happy. Not the cleanse version of happy when I am happy because I am lying down. Anywhere.
d) Anorexic Person
Horrible! Awful! Terrible! I cannot believe that people can live like this. I am pretty convinced that between the cleanse and the run I was negative calories for the day. Not a goal of mine. Bad, bad plan. It feels almost like you're drunk and trying to keep it a secret. Woozy and off. Not a fan. Not one time. I cannot CANNOT imagine feeling compelled to behave in this manner. Not for the flattest stomach in the world would I make this my lifestyle.
6. Breanna might just be the most organized person in the whole world. No seriously. I may have been the person who dreamt up the idiot plan but Breanna was the driving force in making it happen. She researched, she planned, she shopped and she juiced. It boggles my mind how much she can get done. (Breanna, you are AMAZING!!!).
7. Scott is lame. Normally he surprises me with his stick-to it attitude. The man loves to take on crazy and win! This time? Not so much. Maybe he just had more toxins to purge......!!!! (Scott doesn't believe in toxins.) Regardless, he had a lot of trouble forcing himself to drink the juice. More so than the rest of us.
8. I am not nearly as addicted to coffee as I thought I was.
9. Side benefit: The cleanse makes you SO excited for everyday eating. I am in love with food again. I can't believe I ever took chewing my meals for granted!
And I think that is that.
The Cleanse wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Nevertheless I am fairly certain that I will never do one again. Fairly. Never say never, y'know!
The things I have learned:
1. Juice can be yucky. And make you barf (Breanna! And almost Scott!).
2. When you drink all your meals through a straw your teeth stay very clean. Bonus!
3. Running while cleansing just might be the stupidest idea ever. There is certainly no eating disorder in my future.
4. Cleanse dishwashers, water bottles and poo all smell like The Cleanse. I'm not even certain from where exactly that smell originates. Some pureed something or other.
5. I am so very glad to be me.
Thus far I have been:
a) Scott
I found myself driving to the doctor and having missed my turn. It was as if I had just "woken up" father along Ira Needles than I had planned. I think I was on auto pilot to my mother's house.
b) Lisa
Cold. So frickin' cold, all the time. It's AWFUL. I never really understood the evils of permafrostiness until this week. The LAYERS. Oh the layers I had to wear. Always bulky, never slimming. The whole freezing-inside-for-no-reason was awful. I can't believe Lisa has to do this every winter. <Shudder>
c) Grumpy Person
I think I was just like normal people. It was odd. I didn't say hello to strangers. I didn't hum to myself. I didn't twirl for no reason. I just didn't have the energy. I miss being happy. Like real happy. Not the cleanse version of happy when I am happy because I am lying down. Anywhere.
d) Anorexic Person
Horrible! Awful! Terrible! I cannot believe that people can live like this. I am pretty convinced that between the cleanse and the run I was negative calories for the day. Not a goal of mine. Bad, bad plan. It feels almost like you're drunk and trying to keep it a secret. Woozy and off. Not a fan. Not one time. I cannot CANNOT imagine feeling compelled to behave in this manner. Not for the flattest stomach in the world would I make this my lifestyle.
6. Breanna might just be the most organized person in the whole world. No seriously. I may have been the person who dreamt up the idiot plan but Breanna was the driving force in making it happen. She researched, she planned, she shopped and she juiced. It boggles my mind how much she can get done. (Breanna, you are AMAZING!!!).
7. Scott is lame. Normally he surprises me with his stick-to it attitude. The man loves to take on crazy and win! This time? Not so much. Maybe he just had more toxins to purge......!!!! (Scott doesn't believe in toxins.) Regardless, he had a lot of trouble forcing himself to drink the juice. More so than the rest of us.
8. I am not nearly as addicted to coffee as I thought I was.
9. Side benefit: The cleanse makes you SO excited for everyday eating. I am in love with food again. I can't believe I ever took chewing my meals for granted!
And I think that is that.
The Cleanse wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Nevertheless I am fairly certain that I will never do one again. Fairly. Never say never, y'know!
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